HOLY CRAP

OK, is everyone sitting.....maybe that was just for me! Well Scott and I were sitting home on Saturday night and he made a comment to me asking if I had started my period. Well, he was only asking cause I had a major meltdown on Thursday and I told him it was PMS. Anyhow, I answered with a "NO". Which then got me thinking.....HMMMM, I need to go look at a calendar, when should I start. HOLY CRAP, I'm 2 weeks late, how did I not realize. I guess I was thinking no period is better then one...right? So after looking at each other and I'm sure thinking the same exact thing, I proceeded to get my shoes, cause off to the store I will go for a handy dandy test. After a trip to Mesa Frozen and to walgreens I came home to lock myself in the bathroom with my Certainty EPT test. Thinking the whole time NO POSSIBLE WAY!!!! Well after waiting the recommended 3 minutes, I casually glance up to of course read "NOT PREGNANT", when the words "HOLY CRAP", came screaming out of my mouth!! Because if you can guess by now the words "NOT PREGNANT" were replaced with the word "PREGNANT"!!!!!!!! Obviously we have both calmed down enough to realize the truth, and I have now "MAYBE" 9 months to let it all sink in. That's another issue. I'm not sure when this all actually happened. I tend to start my periods with all pregnancy's and then I stop after a day or 2. Well looking back my last period was very lite and only a few days. My thoughts are how on earth could I have missed the MANY MANY SIGNS. Logan has been having diahrea and I have been gagging with each changing and I even thru up once....no big deal it's gross to change dirty explosions. SMELLS, absolutely driving me crazy....no big deal, I have a sensitive nose. FOR THE LOVE....it was right in front of me. Ok, I am now asking for words of advice since I will now have 2 kids 15 months apart!!!! My shortest is 24 months and the others were both 3 years....should I be suicidal???????